CNY rings the bell

Chinese New Year is around the corner.
The atmosphere in my house is good.
The shopping malls are fulled with lanterns and other decorations.
Everbody is buying their new shirts and dresses.
Everybody is busying cleaning and decorating their house.
But howcome deeply in my heart,
I am not excited and full of expectation at all??
I hate this kind of feeling..

新年竟然成为我一生人当中最讨厌的事情。。唉。。

Choice

There is a question which i used to ask myself frequently:

Do I have the right to choose for myself??

I will always think that i didnt have a choice since i was young. That is because everything seems like in the control of my family members. I have no right to choose for my life, I have no choice to choose for what i want, and even now, its seems that I dun have the right to choose for my future, everything is out of my control. There is a metaphore to describe those kind of life: its juz like a bird that have been locked inside a freaking small cage!! And I will always think that I am in those kind of situation.. sad-nya..

Until yesterday night, i went for a talk which emphasized on the way in which you can love yourself. I think i was wrong for all the way in my life. The speaker said that the moment you get the chance to explore this wonderful world, the LORD has been giving everyone a chance and an ultimate right to choose for what you want. Sometimes when we say that we dun have the right to choose for anything, its actually a good excuse for ourself. Thats mean we are trying to escape from something, which means we are not ready or lack of courage to face the answer .. Actually there do have some solutions for us to come over every problem, juz that at the moment, we haven't figure it out, hence we juz give ourself a good excuse, so that we will feel better...

After the talk, I did think about the problem that I faced now, maybe what have been said by the speaker was correct, which is at the moment, I still haven found a proper way to talk to my family members. Maybe juz need to figure out the solution patiently, and everything will be fine..

Just Smile, everything will be all rite!!

摩天轮 @ Ferris Wheel

从小到大，我就很期待爸妈会带我去坐摩天轮，但很不幸，这个期待一直都无法实现。。

可是，虽然爸妈没有带我去坐摩天轮，但其实就算他们带我去坐，我也未必有勇气去坐，只因我从小到大都患有畏高症。。

但在16.11.07这一天，我竟然有勇气登上这一个期待已久的摩天轮了。。在这一刻，期待竟然打败了畏高症，也许是好朋友给的勇气吧。。我说过，我会和她第一次登上摩天轮的。。我对她的答应也终于实现了。。

坐上摩天轮的感觉其实是很奥妙的。。当你说坐的车箱到达最高点时，那感觉就仿佛是整个世界都在你脚下一样。在那一刻，你也可能体会到幸福的滋味。。可是，一旦你说坐的车箱到达最低点时，其实你会感觉到你是很渺小的。。世间的一切都没有想象中的美好。。

人生就像一着摩天轮，

在人的一生中，

你会到达最高点，

也可能会处于最低点，

也甚至永远都处于最低点,
所以，我们都应该学会珍惜眼前的一切，

无论是朋友还是家人，

都应该好好的把握一切，

决不能让自己后悔。。

给永远的好朋友，

我有信心我们会是一辈子的好朋友，

所以一定要开开心心的。。

Life is just like a Ferris Wheel,

It fulls with up and downs,

therefore we must always learn to appreciate,

its impossible that we can get anything that we want in our life,

sometimes its really useless for us to fight against,

as we really tired deep inside our heart,

hence we may just need to surrender,

but at that moment,

you are not frustrated,

but filled with disappointment and sadness,

you feel like crying but you just cant,

that feeling is just like someone stabbed right at the middle of your heart,

however, we just need to accept the fact that we have no choice at all..

anyway,

as time pass,

we may have different opinion on what had we actually did last time,

what I can said is We just need to learn to face everything bravely..

Everything will still be all rite tho the result may not compatible with what we wish to have..